I read a post today that said, “If nothing hurt when I woke up I would think I was dead.” This got me to thinking on just how lucky or blessed I have been all my life and still am. Sure, just like anyone that has lived as long as I have, there have been many bad things that have happened to me. Being honest, I have to admit, most of the bad stuff happened because of not so smart decisions I have made.
I didn’t ask however to be sickly as a child, but having my tonsils removed when I was eight years old fixed that problem. I didn’t ask to almost die from an Etopic pregnancy but I was blessed with a beautiful daughter two years later. Who knows why I have had to have all the surgeries I have endured and the breast cancer thing, well shit just happens.
Bad relationships, bad marriages, bad jobs and many moves all over the country and yet I still feel that I am lucky and blessed. Oh, I would like to be thinner or in better shape but for the most part, I am so much healthier than so many my age or even people younger than myself. How wonderful I find life that I can still do so many of the things I love to do and am healthy enough to try new things.
From time to time, I get a little freaked out because at my age it seems the end is closer than I would like it to be. Maybe only because I look back and see just how fast the last twenty-five years have passed by. If I live another 25 years, I’ll be 89! Holy crap! How can that be? I also realize that my future is here and I’m living it. Now that’s a little scary too. My parents lived to be 76 and 80. Will I live longer? Geese, I sure hope so, as 76 doesn’t feel that far off at all!
The truth of the matter, when I get to feeling a little scared, I just remind myself what all I have lived through and I’m still kicking. By all accounts I should have been dead several times. I suppose that is one reason I decided to start writing. Yes my books are fiction but the ideas come from things I have done or lived through. I could write my memoirs but who would believe it? I have trouble believing some of it!
In the mean time, as long as I stay lucky and blessed, I’ll keep on adding memories to this life.